season ender.... for me????

"Please just end it, because i can't. I'm in it. Put me in my misery."

This one's from the season 3 ender of grey's anatomy. i like what Derek told to Meredith about... well, their status. Wish I have the courage to tell it to him, hay...

(Derek and Meredith are in the locker room)

Meredith: If you want to break up with me so you can see other women, just do it. Don't tell me you met another woman. Just end it if that's what you want.

Derek: I can't.

Meredith: Sure you can. Here's how it goes...Meredith, I don't want to see you anymore. Meredith, I don't love you anymore.

Derek: Meredith...I DO LOVE YOU. DON'T YOU SEE? DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND? YOU'RE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. I CAN'T LEAVE YOU. BUT YOU'RE CONSTANTLY LEAVING ME. YOU WALK AWAY WHEN YOU WANT, YOU COME BACK WHEN YOU WANT. NOT EVERYONE, NOT YOUR FRIENDS, BUT YOU LEAVE ME. SO I'M ASKING  YOU...IF YOU DON'T SEE A FUTURE FOR US, IF YOU AREN'T IN THIS...PLEASE...PLEASE JUST END IT, BECAUSE I CAN'T. I'M IN IT. PUT ME IN MY MISERY.

so please, put me in my MISERY, coz i can't... i really can't do it. i love you too darn much to end it. but i'm tired, getting really tired... i have the right to get tired, coz i'm human. i'm no superhero nor psychic to understand you all the time. i know we have other business to attend to, but am i not that important anymore? don't ever give me the "i'm busy" excuse coz that's bullsh*t. that is so bullsh*t...

i'm tired, so tired of the same old crap....

HAPPY 30TH MONTHSARY.