Expecting the Worst to Come.

"EVERYTHINGS NOT THE SAME ANYMORE
even u
i understand..
i lack of everything..
i will accept the consiquences after this


mejo bz tlga aq sori...
if i cant make it on sunday
its up 2 u...

il respect and accept whatever u want to do to me

but i think i know what will happen....

i suck :("




dammit!



what will you feel if the one you love will say this to you?


i was taking my tears back when i read this... i said to myself, "shit! now its in my hands what will happen to us??? damn!!!" he's like manipulating my mind, making the 'makaawa' effect like other guys do...



all i want is a serious conversation with him... is that hard to ask?



all i want to see right now is his EFFORT... i told him that if he still cares for me he'll make an EFFORT to come here.



i told him i understand that he's busy with his work. but not all the time i'll understand him.... still, i have to, coz that's how much he means to me.




i need answers to my questions. i need affirmation. I NEED HIM.



doesn't he understand that siMPLE FREAKING THING???? DAMMIT!!!!




*sigh*






still i love that guy...






if i'll be mad of somebody, that would be ME. i'm hating myself because i'm a martyr to a jerk. and i too darn love that jerk.




like i said before, i love him too darn much to end it. so i'm giving him the opportunity...





shit, i'm an asshole.





now i'm expecting the worst to come....





*CUE: Brick by Ben Folds Five*